When did I get so F***ING angry?

Hey everyone, I legitimately need to apologize for the way I was acting yesterday on my Tuesday Bro Tuesday live stream (1/14/20) . It felt wrong and out of character for me. Someone in chat said another YouTube channel had “called me out” for talking about the IQOS. The Iqos is already a sore subject for me, and in that moment it was just the straw that broke the camel’s back.

Last week in the VLOG I had talked about my mental and physical issues, dealing with stress and anxiety and depression. Tuesday was a real rough day for me. I know that’s not a great excuse, but it’s the only one I have. Empire Vape Co did reach out to me VIA email shortly after that stream and I apologized to him and sort of explained where I was coming from. Listening back to my reaction and what I said honestly makes me a little bit ashamed.  It honestly felt like I was listening to a stranger talking.  It didn’t sound like me. If the video didn’t contain some other actual GOOD information, I would consider just taking it down.

So to  @Empire Vape Co  I’m sorry. I handled that poorly and I told you to fuck off, but I don’t want you to fuck off. That was unwarranted and a huge dick move on my part. I hope you can forgive me. And to you guys I am also sorry. You shouldn’t have to deal with that ugliness here on this YouTube. I’m working on getting back to my old self again but it’s a work in progress. To those keeping up with me this last year has really taken its toll on me, maybe more than I realize. I’m just not in a good place right now. You guys always have my back and that means a lot to me. You deserve better than stupid infighting and squabbles all things considered

Nothing but love, be excellent to each other
-Nick